Check out the gross coating on my tongue!! No matter how much I brush it stays returns within minutes.
My friends and I have reached day 5. It feels like a small victory, however I am reacting poorly.
Don't get me wrong, it feels great. This has been the easiest cleanse ever, with no hunger, barely any cravings, gentle SWF's, etc. Moderate cardio has been possible mostly every day, and using a centrifugal juicer instead of squeezing lemons makes the ingredients go a long way.
But I remember looking differently at myself the other times. Maybe because recently my weight was lower, and I am trying to get back to where it was... The mirror does not reflect much change; contradictory to the scale, which boasts 4.5 lbs dropped. Sure the clothes fit better already, but my anxiety is not allowing me to enjoy the process. I have to remember that this is not for weight loss, this is a detox so that my eating habits can be reeducated once it is finished. But that's hard. The want of immediate results may be the hardest addiction to break free of.
Usually this is the halfway point of the cleanse for me, and any days past it are "bonus days". This time it will be done differently. I will stay on the cleanse as long as it takes for me to break free of my worst habit: Unhappiness with myself.
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